It is now the new year, and I have all but given up on this so called quest for "health." There hasn't been much of a change in diet, nor have I been able to solve my incredible cramping problem. There was a supplement at the Health Food market in town that I bought and tried for three days - needless to say it made me extremely sick, and I ended up taking it back for a refund. It was supposed to cleanse my liver and kidneys so the liver will metabolize (absorb) more estragon which is what I have way too much of. The women I spoke with at the market told me that she recommended some kind of herbal pill that is made especially for women with my symptoms - and she swares by it.

Since I have been trying things to keep healthy all my life, I’ve come to a point where I desire to be fat and lazy about my health like everyone else seems to be. I have lost so much weight over the past two months, and part of me thinks I'm too skinny and part of me isn't satisfied with a 30' waist. I dreamt last night that I joined a gym and ran the track for 6 miles...I think my body is trying to tell me something; waking up felt exhausting.

...more to come